This feeling, strong as it is cannot be pursued . I cannot be swayed by the melodious words of promise. My heart yearns for more but my brain knows better.
I’m at the edge, the edge of my breaking point. My heart has been rendered naked and bare. Only but a prickle is enough to shatter it. But here comes my emotional detachment to save the day. Is it just me?, is this normal? ‘long as it gets the job done , ‘long as it keeps my heart safe. I may ride with the wave of pessimism.
Lest I forget . Happy new year guys . I know it’s been monthsss but can I say I’m back ? Maybe.
Once, I thought to test the waters , that one leap of faith , oh maybe , just maybe this would be the one. I wasn’t warned , or maybe I was but don’t they said love is blind, moving without a cane. Bound for disaster. I gave my all but the tears at 3am do not understand common sense. The distressing feeling , the loneliness . Tell me why I should try again ? Tell me why I should lay my cards on the table ?. At this point I have no more tears to cry.
But why is this stranger lingering on my mind , why do I wake up with thoughts and feelings I haven’t felt in months. It cannot be pursued – I may have to keep reminding myself. Easier said than done but I’ll try my best , my best to not tip over the edge. I’ll try my best to not cave in – for a man in love is no different from a fool.